||[Jul. 7th, 2014|08:17 am]
I found out yesterday that one of my oldest friends from LJ died over the weekend and I'm just stunned and saddened. I woke up this morning and it slowly came back to me after the haze lifted, and so I felt compelled to post something on here, because anywhere else (Facebook, my blog, Twitter) just wouldn't feel right. |
I became LJ friends with Ami back in 2003. She was already friends with Christina and would always see us commenting to each other, so she asked if she could friend me, also. And through all of Christina's ups and downs and ons and offs, Ami always stayed my friend. She also tried to warn me so many times that I was playing with fire, but we all know how that turned out, haha.
We even talked on the phone or twice, after things got really bad with me and Christina. Ami was so kind, you guys. Wise, smart, funny and extremely talented with words. But I pushed her away a lot...something about only wanting to hear what you want to hear.
Just a few weeks ago, Ami wrote on my Facebook wall about how I'm one of the funniest people she knows, and I meant to write her a message to thank her, but instead I just "liked" it and then never found time to say much else.
She would also randomly tell me that she thought I was a great mom, which meant so much because I don't get to hear those things from my family.
Ami was a good friend, but I was just mediocre at best. And now it's too late. I hate that death always seems to be the inpetus to this sentiment, but: Tell someone they mean a lot to you today, you guys. Tell someone that EVERYday. Before it's too late. :(